It jus happens in a way....

2007-04-15T18:13:00.000-07:00

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2007-03-04T17:16:00.000-08:00

Again, im late for school. Woke up round six plus and
went over to zi rui's place bout six forty five.
And by the time she was ready, it was already 7.05.
Din gotta do any squads today because the both of us did not
turn up at the parade square.
So we went back to join our classes after the assembly was over
but i was caught by ms chew for not having a late slip.
Obviously, i had to go all the way down to get it from mr lye.
Today's my fifith time. Does that means i gotta go down for another two hours
detention again??
:l
Loving you.

2007-03-04T01:04:00.000-08:00

Phew. Work day was the worst for last friday.
here are a list of things that happened to me
on that day:
1. cant reach my workplace in time and was late for work.
2. leg got stepped on by a few customers by accident.
3. almost spilled the tea when my colleages called out to me.
4. almost broke something.
5. my sole of the shoe came off( was being stepped from behind by a customer without him knowing it and me struggling to get my foot away)

So.. i gotta walk all the way up to the third level to get a new pair of shoes, walking like a lame person. It was so embarrassing, especially when people are looking at you. :(
well, that was not the worst though.

Gotta leave for malaysia the next day for a big family gathering the next day.
Drank a little on that day, and everything was still not that bad except a little bored though.
thought he would be coming along with his parents but it turned out to be only Jarryl and Zac.
OH... Zac was soooo adorable. haha. actually saw hin cried that day. Aww... :(
Everyone watched fire crackers and fire works together that night ad that ws really beautiful(:
Still kinda feeling disappointed when Nic and Gab din turn up.
well, that was not the worst yet.
I missed the RSAF expedition!! and it ended today:(
sighs.
so you see guys, everything has not been going well for me.
remember to cheer me up yea? xp
loves(:

2007-02-28T05:03:00.000-08:00

Detention class today was real boring today.
Sat there for that two whole hours, doing nothing.
Left my physics and half of my chem paper blank for
common test today.
My mind was totally blank---I
couldnt recall anything at all.
well, i've did real badly for this time.
gotta work harder already.
Hmm...
Saw pang yong in bus 240 when im on my way back taday and he called out to me.
Din heard him at first cause i was blasting off my mp3 at that time.
yeah. so..
kinda felt bad to haf let him called out a few times.
haha.
well, i made sammuel bring back my maths one and two and he really brought it back
with him.
even helped me finished the maths when its suppose to be done as homework.
you guys must be thinking what a lazy girl am i right?
hah.
tmr's thursday!! can sleep in for a longer time. yay!!!
time for me to sigh out now.
bye!! loves.
enelrahc(:

2007-02-27T00:28:00.000-08:00

hi hi. im back!!(:
life's starting to get better for me now i suppose.
yeps.
im on my way getting used without that few of them in my life now,
so.. :l
well, im prepared to fail this round's common test actually..
because i know i wont be able to catch up with all those that i've missed.
yeps. so im gonna try harder the next time round.
positive attitude yea?
hah.
She asked me a little bout her the other day.
and i was like.. oh okay..
im starting to kinda dislike that her a little.
yeah. Am i too harsh that day? I dont know.
gonna end here today guys.
do remember to miss me yea?
loves(:

2007-02-22T17:54:00.000-08:00

Wow. My blog has been left there for so long without updating it man!! Hahah.
Well, life has been just so-so, yeps. i've been giving most of my time to work, and of cause, my little darling!
Giggles. Chris often says im bullying the rabbit when im actually not.
In fact, i think he should say im a kind owner instead.
Who would actually leave their rabbits or little pets running about in the house even when no one's at home?
This is called, allowing them to enjoy freedom!! hahah(:
alrighty.
Common tests will be starting just next week!!:(
Will be going out to study with Chris around later.
Im getting kinda freaked out when he told me bout someone who actually scored thirty plus
for "o" levels.
Imagine me endind=g up with that kind of results.
NO!!!!!!!!!!!
Studies haven been a good one for me for this year cause i was absent for too many times
and i missed out alot of lessons too.
Sighs.
Gotta catch up with others.
Yeah. Oh ya.
Wanted to share something bout my jobs.
Working at MOF wasnt really that easy. Cause we wont get to have our breaks
like mac. so of cause my stomach would always be growling after work. hahah.
As for the tution thingy, someone is asking me to teach another tution class and im still considering
wether should i take it up ornot.
To me, having 3 jobs has made my days more packed and but still sometimes, i carn find the time to catch up with my friends.
And now, by taking up this offer would make me even busier, so...
Yeps.
i gotta go now.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!(:

2007-01-25T19:43:00.000-08:00

I miss her!!
anyway just wanna say sorry to my duckie for
this morning.
take care. cat'll be here.:)

2007-01-24T21:25:00.000-08:00

arlo!! whoo hoo!!
back again!! hahah.
i miss my somebody!!
till now she still owe me something sia.
so fast forget. sad.
sighs. she say till lidat.
win already lor.
but nevermind. im a forgiving person.
will forgive her this time round..lol.
later going off to meet HER!!
YAY!!!! finally can see her again!!
MISSED her so much!!!!!!!!!!!!
BYE EVERYBODY!!! hahah!!:DD

2007-01-21T16:45:00.000-08:00

ahahaha... woots.
almost pontend school again today.
But luckily we still went to school in the end.
All because of that stupid letter.
Thank goodness i attended school lah. If not
i'll be far far behind others for the coursework
already.
Actually also not much difference even if i din
turn up for F&N lesson.
cause i FORGOT MY ACCOUNT PASSWORD!!
and i just gotta borrow my classmate's account
and re-do the whole thing.
It was like: 'what the hell..so suay'
hahah. later going down to find baby.
Yay!!! (:
Whoo hoo!! lah lah lah~
tmr got DC again.
but its alright lah. still got people
pei me.
later recess going to see duckie again le! hahahaha.. :D
Miss you bestie!!:)

2007-01-18T17:54:00.000-08:00

Sighs. Im prepared to fail my F&N test
again. Din haf the time to revise properly.
sobbs.And im damn sick and tired of the stupid coursework.
So many things to search for and stuffs.
arghh... studies studies and studies.
what a boring day.still gotta go for detention class
after school.for 1 1/2 hrs!!
Arghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

2006-12-24T23:30:00.000-08:00

Merry christmas everyone!!
im damn sad now la. cus santa
din visit me last night.
haha. ya ya. i noe im lame.
but i want MY PRESENTS!!!
muhaha...im so touched..
at least there's still some
caring angels out there who
cares.
recently i realised some things.
yeah. sometimes things wont be
as bad than we've tot.so..
yeps.haha. i've nvr tot
i would spend my birthday working
at mac the whole day. but its
not that bad either. school
will be reopening soon. sighs.
righty. i gotta go. good bye evrybody.
MUST MISS ME!!MUHAHAHA!!:D

2006-12-08T16:06:00.000-08:00

Arlo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
muhahaha... crazy charlene is back!!
finally back. So glad that i wont have to step into that room again.
absolute...
yuckies.
oh...i postpone my gyming session with bu xiu gang
last sat.
Oooo...
and then, followed by rain.
told her that i had to rush off around three plus and
she told me to make it another time.
well, its alright anyway i suppose.
we still have plenty of chances to hang out
after today..so should be alright isn't it??
humph...
wonder if she's back.
sighs. din get to sleep a wink last night.
was busy unpacking my stuffs and preparing something.
will be meeting up with aud later on..yawns..
im sleepy..
okay guys. i've finished sharing
my little story. will be ending here.
buai byee!! ^ ,^

2006-11-25T23:42:00.000-08:00

First day is so bored...
I was trying to explain to you last night but you wouldnt listen.
but its alright.
you must be feeling terrible isnt it??
Im sorry.
Maybe i should not go online last night.
all these wont turn out to be so bad then.
I miss my bestie..and my doraemon kor kor...
Well..everything is just so different.
Cant stop thinking of what happened...
aRGhHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i need someone to talk to.
SOMEONE.
i love animals!!they are so adorable...
err.ok.
that doesnt makes much sense..
wadever.
i gotta go now.
if only i could be cheered up.
Phoebe is so cute in her dog attire.
urgh............................
i feel as if im going bonkers soon..
ArghHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-11-24T23:42:00.000-08:00

Today shall be the worse day that i ever lived. Made my god husband cry..
Just wanna apologise to her and her baby.
Apologise to her cause i wasnt responsible enough.
Apologise to her baby cause i made her baby cry.
Apologise to my baby cause i showed her attitude.
Isnt it the worse day with the worse things happening??
I can only have myself to blame.
There's reasons that i showed baby attitude that night.
Major reasons which i wouldnt wanna share it out,
and minor reasons such as inferiority.
Maybe im not suitable or good enough for her ba. I dunno how come i will be feeling this way,
but somehow i felt i appeared in her life at the wrong time.
I vowed to treasure her like i've never did, but this feeling just came in.
I know that there's no right or wrong, or who's fault shall it be...
I will love her till the end of 'everything'..
Im guilty. Shoulnt have just treated her that way even though i wasnt in the best of mood..but how can i not be angry when that jerk came back??
And pretended he knew nothing??
How can i not hate him despite of what he did??
Im no longer what i used to be from that very day.
Everything that i had has changed.
To have her in my life is very much of the unexpected.
I wouldnt care what others were to say, all i want is to belive in us, maybe just for this once.
Friends that i had of all, how many are really true ??
Yet i hurt the one that does instead of not.
How long will everything last??
Im just a boring person who doesnt know exactly..how to express my feelings right out.
Im scared. really very afraid. of losing my only hope.
i've took the wrong step out. Do i still stand a second chance??
I dont want to regret after any choice that i've made.
living with regrets and remorse isnt something that we do feel good of.
There's no trust in myself. No faith. No confidence.
Im trying very hard to grab her heart, but can baby feel that??
Bestie told me. Char, this is wad you will go through wen with her.
I haf to admit that its Tough..Really..
I dunno how long can i hold on, i just feel like holding on to her and never let go.
Baby, i love you more and more each day.
I may nort be good at expressing to you, or maybe you carn feel it.
I just wanna let you know how important you are to me.
You are my hope. I love you.

2006-11-23T03:55:00.000-08:00

.....back again..:)
how's everybody out dere??
zZz...work has been part of my life during the holidays...
Arghh...today is only the fifth day baby has left...
but its alrite..i noe baby will be back before my birthday...
Hope school will never reopen... 3n3 will no longer be the same...so sad...
most of us will be going to different classes but one thing is for sure- we still have our class t-shirt...
bestie, must work hard hard wen school starts next year..
if not i will smack youe boo boo...
must take care wen im away kay...must miss me also...
If ur kor kor comes back before me must help me pei her and kip her happy kay??
if not later i come back hammer you...
you and my kor kor also must stay happy...hor..kays..
bb...

2006-10-07T04:32:00.000-07:00

hihi..
here to blog again..:)
haha...went out to study with chris today for our upcoming exams nxt monday..
And he was late!!haha..Din realli expect him to really take tt long
wen i asked him to take his time..
hmm...harbourfront is so so crowded wif peeps!!
hahahss...think is because vivo city just opened..yupps..
So many people that we haf to change our place to study..
In the end, we went to the library at esplanade, but its also full with
people studying inside..sighs..
So we went to the mac at marina square..did a little of revising..yuppies..
but then, i left early in the end..
Was suppose to go to my cousin's place after studying..
but din noe he wld knock off so early...so..
Can sae i so call bombed him halfway ba...
hmm..
anyway, todae has been quite a fun one!!^^
learnt a little of maths from tt idiotic bobdog todae..hahas..
k la...
think i hafta end here le..
hafta leave for malaysia soon.. :(
but........
i will be beck by tmr!!
must miss me!!hahahs...all the best to everyone for their exams!!:)

2006-10-03T22:37:00.000-07:00

arlo!arlo!arlo!arlo!arlo!
hahahhahaha....back!!^^
yupps...nothing much to share with you guys but
only that.. i will be removing my bandage soon!!
hahas. well, just kindda stressed up recently..and i dread
going home..T.T
maybe its due to the upcoming of exams,has made me worry
quite alot..abt my final results??
didnt really make an effort to study..
hmm...was out with rain and ho ho yesterday..
i went to meet them after school at blk213 as they were going to take a direct bus to the clementi interchange. Saw karen and melissa on my way there.. -.-
was at blk 212 where this group of BVSS peeps were crowding over dere..
But luckily nothing bad happened,so all was good^^
we were in bus 173 when ho ho suddenly mentioned
abt the haunted hse as we passed by somewhere near there
and the 3 of us ended up talking abt dose stuffs all
the way till we reached our destination..hahas.
And we hang around that clementi area after getting our things done
and thats how we spent our afternoon away..
ho ho went home after that and rain and i went to westmall
to hang around..
we revealed quite alot of things to each othher on the way there..
hmmm...oh ya...we went to get ho ho's present and do our fotos
at westmall and she did alot this time round!!:)
ya...thats all i hafta share with you guys for now^^
will be back again:):):)

2006-09-26T22:35:00.000-07:00

Here to update my bloggy now...yupps..
hmm...final year is coming real soon...must chiong already..
Kinda far behind others in most of my subjects.aint really doing well at all.
Guess i may hafta fail this time round?? i've tried focusing in class but carn..
Maybe i should delete some things off my mind?? Memory is getting full..
Everything hasnt been going on well fer me..got hurt during PE lessons agn the other time..
Its..worse then the previous time:(nded up with a dislocated finger and the doc got it bandaged up like a ...
??? ..
Tink shld be able to take it off maybe nxt week?? probably wait till it doesnt hurt tt much ba..
Things are starting to get more and more..upside down nowadays??unbelievable stuffs are actually happening..
its hard to belief it at times,wadever tts happening..
hmm..tsk, tsk, tsk...
i hafta go off soon:(
God bless everyone!!^^

2006-08-28T01:40:00.000-07:00

hey everyone.... Back to update my blog...
Its been quite some time since i last update my blog already..
hmm... dun hafta worry...will sure share smth with you all..
haha...craps..
yupps..so think i'll just share a little of wad happened last sat.
As usual, i left slightly earlier fer work on tt day...
Was on bus 188 when it actually broke down halfway round the clementi area...
of cus, i was quite mad as im gonna be late fer work..
And tt's also wen i realised how troublesome it is to be without a fone..
Cant even give the store a call..
But luckily another bus 963 came...
so wasnt late ...
Phew...wad a close one..
hmm...
yupps..have quite a bad day...
almost flunk my maths common test.. but the lucky thing is that i've just hit the passing mark..
sighs..
thinking of him, its been ...can say its already been a week??
yupps... a week since we last came in contact wif each other... kindda miss him...
Just wad happened??heard from kor kor tt he has left eclub le..
so i doubt he and his friends will be going back??
Cus no more free com for them already...lol...
hmm...think i shall end off here now...gtg.
take care everyone.God bless you.

2006-08-06T22:51:00.001-07:00

sighs... quite unlucky recently...
Leg got whacked by hockey stick during PE, late for skl, bla bla bla...
Yawns... damm boring...
he called me up tt day..
And we chatted for awhile..
Guess its best for us to remain as friends ba...
hmm...
Dun really haf anything to write abt le...
sign off.

2006-08-01T22:58:00.000-07:00

Gan lao gong, this blog is for you ya..
Hmm... Must take good care of yourself hor....
Cuz you just recover..
So how?? Feeling better already??
Lol.. One thing that i wanna tell you...
I wanna apologise for not planning your birthday ya...Cuz if i did, all those things woulnt haf happened..
Im sorry..But im sure your next one would be a better one k??
Stay happy...Must concentrate on your F n N coursework..
So bad...everytime go do other stiff then owe teacher so much work...Buck up!!

How's the maths test today?? Know how to do??
Sighs... Dont think i will do well this time...
Din finshed the last question..
And even those formulas, im not even sure if i've got them rite..
Just hope that we can pass lor..
Wa.. Common test coming real soon rite??
Everything is happening this way..
Hmm..
hao la.. Think i'll write till here k??
Dont be sad ...
Write another one like this another time.. Dont forget to tag me k..
Or else i hammer your head..
kk...Really gotta go already... bb... Take kairre :)

2006-08-01T22:36:00.000-07:00

Well.... im back again..
gan lao gong, dont hafta feel bad de la.. Its ok, not your fault..
Just take it all like a horrible nightmare k? Cheer up..
Hmm... i've promised you that i'll move on even it has to be without him..
And maybe i should apologise on his behalf for raising his voice at you..

I dunno where the root of the problem lies, just know that i've been a fool all these while..
Will never forget all those happenings, and thats for sure...
His mom phone me up last night...
And i hung her call twice..
Why... it isnt fair to me at all...
How could she say im messing up his life and ask me to stop harrassing him??
I did nothing of that sort...
Just where did i do wrong? Why does things hafta end up this way?
There's just no point of return...
We've already reached the end of our journey..Guess we really had..

Memories is something that will always remain as the unforgotten, but i will move on..
I will...
After that night of crying, that night of shedding tears...
Being with him, this will become one of your frequent end ups..
I realised.. that im a little too naive...
What for worrying for his future when he doesnt even give a damn??
One thing that its hard to figure out. The one who told me to look after her son and persuade him to study is his mom. The one that told me that im messing up her son's life its also her...
What does she wants?

I used to dream of lasting long, but all this..
They are still dreams after all...Forget it..
I will just forget about him and take it that im a fool...
All that i've done in the past...its not worth it...

But i guess..maybe this sentence would sounds familiar to everyone ya??
'Jiu de bu qu xin de bu lai'...
Now that all was over, somethng good is happening..
At least i know there will still be others that are willing to treasure you ya..
Good enough le..

Sighs. common test is around the corner...
Think it should be on the 18th if im not wrong??
Gotta do some mugging le.. :)
Hafta go. everyone, take care ya??
Miss you all :)

2006-07-27T01:29:00.000-07:00

hi everyone, im here to update my blog again...
know what??Today we haf hockey for our pe lessons again!!haha.
But i forgot to bring my attire. I was asked to join in anyway...Was appointed to be the captain..gawd.
But what's the worst is mr foo appointed aud as the captain for the other team..And it just ended up as 'audrey vs. charlene'
haha...Gan lao gong vs. gan lao po...
hee hee..No one gave in to each other ya...We played it fairly...
Had a great time today...

There's this guy...whoever he is...
really pissed me off..damm. just hope he can stop msging me and scram outta my life..
Cant understand him . he knew im his friend's ex. And here he is, trying to msg me every now and then.
Just what does he wants?irratating freak...

Whatever. sighs..
wonder if school will open a hockey team soon...
think i'll end here.Will be back.God bless everyone.take care .

2006-07-25T22:07:00.000-07:00

Everything has already ended i guess...
I've already broken off with him...So... Dont think our story will continue again...
Maybe being friends would be the best for both.
hey, im really very sorry. I've decided...We shouldnt patch.
Hope you will just get over me and move on.Its pointless.
No point patching.I've hurt you.
All that im feeling..
GUILTY.these words are flooding in my head.
it's been so hard to get those words off my mind.
I would really be cruel if i were to patch with you again...
i wish to hurt you no more.
please get on with your life.
i believe you can do without me.
i hope you can put all these things aside for the time being...your 'n' levels are coming soon. i really hope you can fare well this time.
your mum is still pinning on hopes on you even though you seldom touch your books, so please dun disappoint her again.
refusing to eat is not going to work.you'll only fall sick in this way.
please. think for yourself k??
just for this once.strive hard and get yourself into a good ITE and get it done.
i really wish you all the best.
dun forget to give your mum a call if you were to stay out late ya?
if not she's going to call people up again...
i have to go now.
i really hope you wun give up on yourself and other things. Wish you all the best. God bless you.
Take care.

2006-07-11T22:54:00.000-07:00

Hmmm....today F n N teacher absent...
yupps...at least its kindda better... can have free periods..haha..damm slack hor??
mmm..
today kim mee brought some sour skittles candies to class....And she gave it to me during english period.
lol...thinking back about the amount she gave me..its a handful..hahas..
then i stuff the whole into my mouth...wah..
Sour??hmm...not really....but still a little la...
hmms...weirdos...
sighs..
still hafta go for detention afterwards..
damm boring..but luckily we went to library to borrow some books during recess time..
at least wun be so bored lor..yupp yupps...
Maybe meeting him after that...Hmm...think he will be late again ba...
Or maybe one of the reasons he gave me will be' im sorry.i was late because i cant find my way here.'
what do ya think??
or maybe,puntual??
lol...hmm...the 18th is approaching...just another 6more days to go....
really at a loss..
sunken into a world of confusion.
Just what should i get for him?hmm..an nike swimming trunks?
Oh gawd. this is gonna be the greatest nightmare thart he ever had...
hahahs....best..
lolls..
hmmm...
you told me to change my blog...but i refuse..
maybe all that i just need will be time..
for now,still being left in a dark, cold world of my own.
im sorry ya..yupps...

btw, tigger is still here...
dun ever throw him aside ar...dun blame me if i turn nasty by then..
hee hee..
hmm..
full of disappointment. Craps.

well...lessons sucks.
especially during social studies...
Mdm azlinah has come up with a crappy plan..
Splitting our class up and seperating us if we refuse to listen.
Craps.lame ideas.
just hope everyone can just slack throughout and got promoted to sec 4 nxt yr..
Hmm..
its time to stop day-dreaming.Hardwork is part of the key to sucess....
what a naive dream i was having just now...
yawns...
tired.
end.

2006-07-09T23:55:00.000-07:00

Sighs....had a quarrel with him again.. cant say he's total to blame anyway...cus i know im in the wrong too..
shoulnt have hung up his calls till halfway and i shoulnt haf flared up at him also..
He cried real hard that night..those words that i said to him sounded too harsh..
im sorry..
Its part of my fault...Promise wont let it happen again...
and i really din expect your parents to know about whats going on....but then, im fine with it ya..
that nite....was the second time we quarrelled...
It was hard to pretend that nth had happened in the first place, and that was also what i hated to hear the most.
All that we both long for,is just to last and be happy when together..
But then, happiness isnt just smth that can remain for long afterall.
I actually heard smth that i hated the the most that nite-his cries.
i hated them. I really do.
How i wished to be able to hear his laughter at that time...
And i felt helpless.Nothing i do can stop him from crying. Knowing that he's breaking down, i still hang his call.
Just let one word to describe me- Heartless.

Whats the right thing and whats the wrong??
Is being with him a wrong choice of mine??
Maybe i shoulnt have be with him in the very first place. He might still be a happy-go-lucky person by now..
I've failed to help him keep his memories.A total failure.
Knowing him brought him many unhappiness.
He cried, he felt lost, he felt lonely, but i was not there.
A lousy stead, and thats all i can say.
Im really very sorry.I hope you will stop blaming yourself for what happened that night.
It was just a simple question, but i took it so seriously and even flared up at you.
I made you felt helpless that night, didnt i??
I wanna thank you for everything.
I wanna thank you for all the memories that you've created for me.Memories wun be there as what it is without you.
Thanks for every, every thing...
The esplanade, marina square, pan pacific, harbourfront,or even punggol end....
Thanks for all.
Wonder if you enjoyed yourself during that outing..
Heard from hao that you seemed rather down at first.But im glad that you still managed to throw off all your unhappiness and enjoy in the end...
Really hope to see you smile soon.And see that you've stopped blaming yourself..
Well, i've got to go now.
End here.take care.

2006-07-06T18:33:00.000-07:00

Hmmm....
sis...really very sorry about your fone thingy.....
din really expect you to downgrade your fone so much..
sorry..
hmm...
anyway...
you ar...dun always sleep during class....like a dead log like that...
hmm....
yupp yupps..
hmm...
dear de fone got confiscated by his daddy le...
quite difficult to find him whenever he's outside...
sighs...but its ok...
cause a relationship doesnt really require smses to keep it going on, so..
wether his fone is with him or with his daddy, it just wont affect our realationship..
hahas..
do i sound like a pro?
lolls...think i may not haf ta leave by the end of the year this time round..
cause yesterday my dad had a talk with me and he did mentioned about my 'N' levels next year...
so....yupps ...
Obviously he's hinting me about letting me stay ya...hmms...
yupps....
studies for me is just normal...
so-so...just managed to get through..
Gotta buck up now...
yupps...
hmm..
comes to think of physics really tickles our funny bones....
Till now sis and i still haven got our ten year series yet..and to think mr kum is totally unaware about that..
hmms..
wahahahaha...
hmm..
quite a blur teacher rite??
hee hees..
hmms..
sis, just wanna apologise to you once more..
really very sorry about the fone thingy ya..
pen off here..
take care..

2006-07-03T07:08:00.001-07:00

hmmm...
really had a great time today..
hmmm..
strolling around, just being involved in some kindda healthy life-style...
hee hees..dear dear sae he went to dye back his hair le..
haiyo..
naughthy boi boi ya..
can be a real brat at times..
every nite will tell me stories if not fairy tales de...
hmmms..
today is our 16th day le..
tym is still passing that fast...
hmmm...
seriously...it seems like as if we haf lasted quite long le..
i tot we we would not be able to meet up that much after skl reopens...
but whu noes..
lolls..we still met up..
hmm..yupp yupps..
he's a real understanding guy ya...
always giving in to me..
hmm..
to think i still suan him all the tym..
hahas...
but he deserves it...
cus he's boi boi mahs..
hor??
Dear...if euu are reading this , dun come after me with a hammer in your hand k??
i will surely freak out de..
hee hees..
and btw, everyone out there....
all the best..
yupps yupps..
gan lao gong..
i haven ferrget you la..
dun think too much k??
wun pung seh you de la..
dun worry wor..
k la...
hafta go le..
wish every one all the best ba..
nite nites..

2006-07-03T07:08:00.000-07:00

2006-07-03T00:34:00.000-07:00

yesterday i had my dinner with his parents...
Feeling kinda nervous, and thats smth that carn be denied...
hmmm...his parents gave me a feeling that....
err...cant really describe it anyway...
hmm...its already been two weeks since we both got together..
al that i hope,is we can last...
sighs...phone got confiscated again..will only be getting back till the end of term..
still hafta stick with that lousy phone of mine ferr the next few months...
just by thinking of that makes me feel sick...
troubles...troubles...and still trouble...
never-ending probs...

2006-06-08T20:24:00.000-07:00

So many things have been happening.....Damm sad....My results wasnt really that good this time..... Kindda worried i cant make it this year.....

I thought we would never be friends again, but just now he actually online and responded to me.....Really don't know how to describe how im feeling right now. Happy??How i wish that things can remain the same....But this can never happen, and that's one thing for sure...
i din went back home the whole night....Dont feel like going back .....
Sometimes i would wonder....why is it that when we have something, we dont treasure it...Only that we realise its importance, its already gone by then....
Still hafta work later on.... Im still learning how to do counter...Know, customers can be real unreasonable at times...Still remember there's this lady....Keep changing her order after i've called for her product....And made me run here and there, looking like a noob...
Starting to regret now.... Why did i go there in the first place??Now even if i wanna quit, i still hafta wait till 6 more months.....

Working is really tough....you'll just meet some peeps that you would rather not to know them in the first place....Sigh.... Luckily im safe .... Last night...Heng ar..... Hahahs...
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2006-06-05T04:13:00.000-07:00

sometimes....
i really feel so useless..

I tot i cld at least pass him the gift,and ferrget abt him...

Not onli i din pass it to him.....
I failed to send him a msg on the actual day....
What else can i say??
It's just not fated....

I've read his blog.....
Maybe what he wrote there ...
Troubles...
refers to me...

And seriousli...
i din really think abt him that often recently..
but why??
just when i was on my way to ferrget.....

why ?

it's damm obvious tt he blocked me....
and why does he hafta unblock me ferr a few seconds and block me agn??

sigh...
im aware that we will nvr be together....
i've nvr hoped that there will be a happy ending between us....

dun haf much to say here.....

please.....

just let things remain this way if you want us to be the past...
i would really appreciete if you do just that..............

2006-05-31T02:58:00.000-07:00

Yeahs....my job is finally over....that 3 days was a tiring one ferr me...
On the first day of work,i got lost and had to ask for directions before i can get to that place...
It was kindda bored on the first day cause im all alone there....but things were much better after that....
I gotta noe this two girls and we got along quite well....
Still remember that time when she offered me some sweets...
They are real friendli peeps ya....
And they brought me to the fountain of wealth the first nite after work...

Knowing them is really a great pleasure....
they made my second and third day a better one....

On the second nite after work,we went to the pan pacific and took the lift out of curiousity..
and we went to the esplanade after that..

though my working place is kindda far from my place,i still managed to get up from bed early....

things were going on just fine...and its a great experience...
hahas....
i feel like a fool saying all deses things...haiz....

at least i get to noe more friends ya.....

sigh..

still carn get him outta my mind......

wonder how is he doing now.....
hope he's doing fine bahz....

i did tried to msg him after his birthday..
but he din reply....
ferrget it la..
guess i lust hafta let him go......
wad else can i do??
he just wun return........

tmr still hafta go back to skl to get my report book....
and the day after still nid to return skl to get back my fone....

if onli mr horn can return me my fone tmr....
hahahs
greedy me...

time is running out....

end here....

lost+forever=????

2006-05-20T00:34:00.000-07:00

its 20may today....

i tot i cld at least pass that gift to him.....but i didnt in the end.....

why am i so useless??
carn even do a simple thing like that....
sighs....
Exams just ended....tink i will retain dis year....

Din really study ferr my subjects....jus feel like slacking and not doing anything...
wonder how many subjects will i pass when all the results comes out....

I've alreay failed my chines e paper 2.....

Physics,chem,f n n,combine humanities......

I will fail badly ferr dis 4 subs.......

30may is cuming le wors....and soon i will get back my fone.....

but den...its quite boring actualli....
imagine going dere without a fone...
how to contact ppl wor??

haiz...
Noticed smth....
really dunno how to explain it...
but den ...
why is 17 so....err...aiya...
dunno how to say......

the ring ...
is also bought on the 17....

sighssssss.........................................................

wonder how is he doing now...must be feeling very happy bahx......

I really din expect us to end up dis way.....

i know i can nvr say it to euu personalli....but all i wanna do now is to wish euu a happy bdae....

2006-05-17T00:53:00.000-07:00

why did you hafta walk out of my life??
Maybe we shoulnt have know each other in the first place.....

I will ferrget you ...I belive i can....
I want euu to be out of my mind,out of my life,out of my heart,out of my head....

I dont hate you......

There's alot of things which i wanna say to you......
But then.....dont think i will haf the chance to.......
It's over,remember??

Guess euu wun even noe how am i doing all these while....

Your birthday is just two 2days away......

Anyway,just to say....
You will be out of my life......

Take kairre.....

2006-05-10T02:18:00.001-07:00

Life just hafta go on..........No point thinking so much abt smth tt's gonna be impossible...
it's useless.....

Hate guys.....dey are freaks!!!!!!!!!!
wad else can dey do??
other dan hurting ppl???freaks.....i dun nid dem in my life......

gals are just fools....
knowing tt things might not las,dey still refuse to let go.....
why carn we live happily without guys in our lives??

haiz..
damm sian....mid-year cuming.....
still haven study....
mus chiong liaoz.....

carn afford to fail dis yr....whuever tt noes abt it....
yupps....mus be worried ferr me bahx??
lolls..hahas...thankiew thankiew...

hahas...especially my gan lao gong.....
she's oways dere wenever i needed her..

she is kindda ....weird at times.....lolls....

lots of ideas and full of crap....hmm....shld not be saying her....its like im saying myself... xD

heyys..
gan lao gong....if euu are reading...jus wanna tell euu tt dis is onli ferr euu wor...
wad i write to euu .....cannot share wif others hor...if not im gonna smack euu real hard...
mukakaka.....

hahaas..k lahz..
gd things always cums to an end....no more words ferr euu liaoz....
lolls...
k??
take kairre wor....
and dun smoke liao le....
kz??
gal gal cannot smoke de.....
take kairres=)

2006-05-07T03:02:00.000-07:00

sigh.....i went to search ferr his friendster acc jus now in the afternoon....

i finally found his acc,and then,i read his testimonials his frens wrote to him....

he's doing very fine,and tts all i can say....

and i read wad his ex wrote to him....

im not sure if tts charlene,but den ....i tink he may haf a second ex too...

cuz dere's dis gal TWJ in his acc..

i went to view her profile..
and read 'his' testimonials..... wad she wrote to him.....
one can easily tell tt dey are a couple at tt tym..

after reading everting...
i just felt kindda...
as if i've really been a trouble and nightmare to him...

haiz..
heyy...
if euu are reading dis..
i just wanna say sry to you..
im such a trouble...
sry ya ...

can see tt euu are doing fine in everything..
hope euu can do better bahz..
wj is a pretty gal...
and she's got gd comments from everyone too..
euu are oso a gd guy..
thx ferr everything..

memories wun be created without euu..
thx ferr evrything......
im sry if ni did ever didi smth to make euu feel....upset...

anyway,guess i wun be passing you the gift anymore....
dun think i shld still go back into ur life....
sry.....

i believe euu are a great student leader....
a righteous guy....
euu are a serious guy wen it cums to a relationship.....
euu still haf many gd frens around euu...

guess euu dun nid me in ur life..
it's been so clear all dese while tt im the one tt nids euu...and tt i've been playing the loving party all dese while..

noe euu've flunk ferr euur swimming exams dis tym....
but i believe euu will sure do well ferr the nxt retest if euu haf any...

im really very sry..
i noe tt dose words wun mean anything.....
but ................anyway..
i really dun noe how to express my feelings...
writing here is the only ting i can do..

i dunno how to face euu..
and tts the reason wy..
euu will onli be in my memories..
and you'll always be...................................

2006-05-06T22:24:00.000-07:00

haiz....

damm sian...
everyday is just like almost the same.....
wad wld happened........will still happens......

sigh...
i asked cephas jus now...
shld i explain to him??
or rather'him'??

i din realli noe wad she's doing..
she just told him everything......wad ever tt has been happening to me all dese while...
haiz....
so many things had happened within such short tym......

does 'he' has any feelings ferr me?
tt nite wen i was taking the taxi round the cck area....
the driver toked to me......he seems to be able to tell tt i was feeling kindda troubled and lost.....
and tt i was also kindda trying to look ferr a place....

he toked to me,and i just poured out everting to him....
he told me..
dis kindda guy....
belongs to the kind of thick in the head.....

he says 'he's' the kindda guy whu will still deny no matter wad..
and dun wanna lose to ppl....
dis really sounds like 'him'..
but den on the other hand,i noe...
dis carn be 'him'...........

'he' will nvr haf any feelings ferr me....
nvr..
wad ever thoughts i harbour,they will onli remain as my thoughts....
they will nvr cum true,and tts wad i can say....

sigh...now,i dun even noe....shld i still pass him his bdae present throgh cephas.....
haiz...
shld i call him up and explain???????????

how shld i explain to him??
do i hafta tell him tt i was drunk and i din noe wad i and audrey was doing????
oh...
tt just sounded kindda stupid...
aiz...

wad shld i do now???

and ferr chris.....
i noe he;s a gd guy,but the feelings i had ferr him is just like a fren....
and i jus dun understand...
wy dun he try to ferrget me??
i believe he will be a happier person if he ferrgets me.....

and audrey....
she ha ssuch deep feelings ferr him....
wy wun he feel smth ferr her??
he wld be a much more happuer person by now if he hadnt brk up wif audrey tt tym.....

not omli tt....
if dey hadnt brk up,maybe audrey wldnt haf played wif pther ppl's feelings.....
haiz..

how i wished all dese is just a bad dream.......

2006-05-06T05:55:00.000-07:00

ytd....it's chris's bdae...

audrey and i celebrated it wif him.....
it was actually suppose to be a happy event....but it turns out to be smth.......else....

audrey and i got our selves drunk...and we both created havoc aftr tt....

haiz..
chris.....im sry ferr ruining ur bdae...
and ya btw...
aloysiou's band is still wif me...
tink i'll pass it to u on monday...
pls help me to pass it to him the nxt tym u see him ya....

thz.....

and sry ferr everyting i've caused ytd......

and ytd....i took cab home.....
i felt so bored...my fone got confiscated by mr horn...
so i decided to explore the bungalow areas ......

i asked the driver to drive me around...

and i went home straight aftr tt...

haiz.......

chris.....

im really very sry.....

everyone out dere....take kairre!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-05-06T05:46:00.000-07:00

today my bro brought me out wif his frens..
and dere's rainbow, yi kai,and jia wei...

ferr dose hu noe's abt 'him'....
jus take note tt he's not wayne ok...
mmm..
but he shared the same chinese name wif wayne ya...

and dis jia wei,he's attached wif kai xin....
and everyone had a wonderful tym dis aftrnoon...

karen and eunice's stead,which is also yi kai's cousin, zhi yong joined us in the afternoon..

we all slacked around at the void deck near cck lot one..

and played and joked throughout...

haiz..
latr on aftr we met up wif karen,we went ferr dinner...

and aftr dinner...
we went to buy alcohol...

jia wei is 18 dis yr...
so tts how we get the drinks.....

sigh...
though everyone had great fun through dis whole afternoon,
i kept tinking abt him...

i mean wayne......

haiz...
but den...
i alrdy noe...
we wun haf a happy ending....
tts wad its gonna happen......

no mood le...
bye bye......

2006-05-02T21:30:00.000-07:00

yeahx....=))))justs another 17 more days to go ......
i've been waiting for a long time for the day to come...
but then....
this day shall decide everything....
how the story is gonna continue..
all depends on this day....

i really hope he will be happy.....but things just dont seems to go rite ferr him.....

he flunk his swimming exam.....and he isnt really very happy abt it....

and his friends are starting to avoid him too....

can say is partly because of his attitude prob bahz......

tts wad cephas told me.....

haiz..
wether will he know the sender of the present....

will hafta depend on fate le.....

but i really hope.......

the ending will turn out to be positve bahz............

time is running out ferr me now....

end here.............

=)

2006-05-02T21:12:00.000-07:00

it jus happens and ended dis way....
evry ting jus seems like a dream...a beautiful one...
and wadever it is...i noe...it will never be the same again...
sigh...wad a bad day....my phone got confiscated by mr horn today...
and that will be a month before i can get back my phone...
arghhhhh!!!wadever la...damm stress...so many things are happening,and they just dont seems to end..
one after another...things just happens....

wad the hell.........

how did he get to know all those things......

and why did he went to tell his best pal about it......

now.....

his best pal knows everything......

just wad am i going to do now?????????????????????????????????????????????????